Cepat atau Lambat?

"nanti dah kahwin cepat-cepat lah dapat baby"

tu antara ayat2 yg selalu aku dapat bila aku cakap aku tak sabar nak kahwin.

ikut hati,
aku memang nak baby cepat,aku ni pulak terlalu suka budak (sampai dulu sanggup kerja kat nursery)

ikut akal,
aku rasa nak hold dulu.

bukan niat aku tolak rezeki, jauh sekali nak tolak qada' & qadar Allah.
tapi aku rasa, maybe we should give ourselves some time to sort things out.
you know, 
nak lengkapkan rumah, 
nak decide about our cars (nak pakai satu kereta je ke,nak tukar kereta ke, camne ke), 
nak balancekan work-life,
nak adapt kehidupan rumahtangga,
most importantly, to do all stuff we can't afford to do while we're saving for our wedding, nak bercuti berdua.

well,
here's the thing.
I met Man 13th Oct 2011, and we started dating immediately.haha.today basically it's not even a year yet since we met.
we decided to get married after 5 months we started dating.
we started saving very very rapidly 2 months after that. we cut down almost everything that a couple would do while dating.
we skipped movies, we skipped eating out, we even skipped shopping.
we usually go out for a drink only. he'll be eating at home and I'll cook simple dishes (or my dear friends will cook) and fill my tummy first before going out.
I gave up my routine going for a vacation every quarter and Man gave up his routine making up his car, going for motosport events.

we're on a very very very tight budget.

so, I would love to have some luxury with my husband after our wedding where we can just head down somewhere in the weekend and spend a night or two away from the city,
or fulfill Man's wishes to go to islands like Redang, Perhentian or Tioman.
I just would like to dine in a fine restaurants and eat fine meals,
or just pamper ourselves in spas or watching movies and theatres,
or just go shopping like no one's business,
if you know what I mean.

just the two of us, anywhere, anytime.

because a mother tweeted not long ago,
"Think about how much you love everyone in your life & then multiply that feeling by a million. That is how much you will love your baby"
when you have a baby, all the attentions goes to the baby.
no, I want all the attentions to me.
I might sound greedy but gimme a break, at least for the first few months.

My other half also agreed that we don't have to be so hasty in making babies.
we don't mind if we don't achieve 'bunting pelamin', really.

but on the other hand,
I am concerned about both of our parents, grandparents, and family (termasuk bakal uncles dan aunty).
Me and him are the eldest in our family, hence expect the excitement.

tapi segalanya berbalik kepada Allah SWT.
kalau Dia kata ya, siapalah kita nak menolak.
kalau Dia kata tidak, siapalah kita nak merungut.
semoga Allah mempermudah dan memberkati kita selalu walau apapun rencanaNya buat kita :)

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